Road rage. It’s what happens when really impatient people like me get stuck in traffic. I don’t like to wait – on anything. Not for the shower to get hot in the morning, not for dinner in the oven and certainly not big life changes.
Lately, it feels like I am waiting on a lot of things in life. New, exciting changes and opportunities, but still a lot of waiting. This season is revealing how bad I really am at dealing with the pauses that come with chasing God’s plan.
But, the waiting is drawing me closer to God and giving me some precious, intimate moments with Him. It is in these moments I share with Him that I realize that He cares so much about our journey and not just our ending.
Sometimes the pauses make me feel like I am not in control (another thing I’m really bad at) because I feel like I can do nothing but sit and wait. But the truth is, I’m not doing nothing if I am drawing near to God during the pause. I am doing exactly what He wants.
“Let us not become weary in doing, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” – Galatians 6:9
I am reminded that waiting is not just something we do to get what we want. It is something we must experience to become what God wants us to be.
Pausing is a part of the sowing process that later allows us to reap God’s goodness.
Slowly but surely, my prayer has shifted from begging God to give me what I want (& when I want it), to asking Him to still my heart. Once my heart is still I can soak up the sweet moments when I’m extra-hungry for God’s word and longing to be close to Him.
It’s in these pauses I find closeness and in the closeness that I find clarify.
And the best news is… God never asks us to wait without Him.
Enjoy the ride, my sweet friends.